messianic time

a tiny shiver of messianic time for Shabbat:

imagine there were no oppression to produce our identities. no homophobia or compulsory cisheterosexuality to produce some of us as queer, no racism to produce some of us as racialized, just millions of forms of descriptive difference not essentialized & politicized by violence. when we said “i” in such a world we might mean almost nothing but a locus of desire

portrait of the autist as a young whatever

1) what is this system of behaviour, i do not understand it & all my intuitions seem wrong

2) i shall study this!!

3) i have systematically theorized the norms & values of this system and will act in accordance with them, even at the expense of other norms & values i have previously theorized but am not currently obsessed with

4) ~surprising amounts of success that also conceal devastating blindspots & imbalances & failure~

5) wait these norms i’ve “mastered” instrumentally are maybe actually intrinsically quite fucked???

6) wait i’ve misunderstood everything oh oh oh fuck

7) “rebellion”/collapse

8) recovery & recalibration

9) repeat, perhaps with mitigation

10) maybe begin to notice a pattern

11) maybe begin to correct for it more adequately

12) wonder if it’s like this for everybody

13) is it

misrecognitions: an evolving digital chapbook

i turned my website which used to house Opinions into a place only for Poems!!!

collected here are fifteen faves among the little prose poems or meditations or whatever that i’ve been posting on my facebook so can’t submit to Official Publication Places elsewhere, and possibly wouldn’t even want to, but perhaps you’ll find some of them Nice or Good?

i will likely update the site with more small words in the future, and if u follow/subscribe or we’re social media pals i can let u know when i do. they form part of a maybe-book (a Book of Maybe) i’m working on, which is an attempt at a queer & trans socialist poetics!!, informed by/in dialogue with ongoing work in social movement spaces.

in the meantime i think the internet should contain slightly (but only slightly) fewer opinions and exponentially (like wow a lot) more poems, so this is my tiny contribution to that digital world-making horizon. ok cool thx!


oh also a note on formatting: some of these texts are in lineated verse & some are prose & some have a bit of both, but you won’t always be able to tell which is which on a vertically held smartphone screen. for optimal viewing, check out this site on a desktop computer or a tablet or a smartphone turned horizontal!